Always listen to your mutha and prioritize!

     Today my mom is going to help me get my license back. I don't know what I would do without her.  She has bailed me out of every sticky situation I've ever gotten into.  (not that it's been too many, just a few.)  In the midst of my addiction, my priorities obviously were not in the correct order or even CLOSE to being in ANY relevant order;

1. Drugs
2. Food
3. "Fun"
4. Dog
5. Matt
6. Family
7. Work
8. Showering
9. Chores/Cleaning
10. Bills

     I now am working on prioritizing.  I USED to put my Bills last...which means now I have accumulated debt. (UGH! what did I do!!?)  I  got behind on my ticket (harrassment/disorderly conduct, long story, I'll blog about that another time) so they suspended my license.  Well, then I got pulled over for "Driving While Suspended".  The asshole Sheriff has a vendetta against me and followed me for over 6 miles before actually pulling me over.  I did nothing wrong.  I think he ran my plates and recognized my name.  (That's MPD for you!!) Anyhow, so I now have another ticket to  pay off along with my $300.00 Car Title Loan (which my mother STRONGLY advised me NOT TO DO). My plan was to move out of my current address into a friends spare room, save money, pay off tickets, save more money, move out into NICE HOUSE.   WOOHOO I actually had a good plan and was going to get my head above water!!!  Well, I had missed 1 day of work by complete accident, I had been moving out of my house, fighting with Matt, having nervous breakdowns and did not realize I had to work. Naturally, my boss called my mother to make sure I was alright.   My mother decided to tell her I "might" have  a drug addiction. So when I show up to work...guess what? My boss tells me to go "get help" for my addiction and I can come back when I"m "better" and she'll need proof that I got "treatment" oooooh k. So now I have NO JOB, NO LISENCE, LOTS OF DEBT...= ANOTHER nervous breakdown.  Of course when a "recovering" addict is faced with ANY pressure the first thing we want to do is get loooaded.  BOOM...3 days of sobriety gone. 
     Now, I know that 3 days doesn't sound like very much but to an addict, or me who thinks about getting high 90% of the day. Three days is a VERY long time and a VERY good start to sobriety.  Since I already got high one day, I might as well get high today too...and the next, and the next..it's hard to find a stopping point.   I finally once again decided to stop.  I haven't used since Monday. It's now Wednesday. 2 days...I can do this.  I hope tomorrow I can tell you I remained sober.